Thursday, August 14, 2008

Back Again

Moo Cow by Andrew Hethrington

That's me. Peeking over the wall.

I'm a little hesitant to return, because my heart still hurts, but I miss you, my friends. Just reading your blogs and emails and the comments you have left have helped to inch us forward.

I can finally eat without feeling nauseous, sleep without Tylenol PM, and look at Remy's pictures without bursting into tears.

The emptiness is still very much here, though, and I know it will only recede over time. Maybe even a lot of time.

I cannot tell you enough how much you all mean to me... and I know it's been said before, but being a part of this blog world has been an absolutely amazing experience. It means quite a lot to me, and I don't know if I could get by without it!

Thank you thank you thank you, and here's to another 101 posts at The Lucky Stone.

9 comments:

Cupcakes and Cashmere said...

it's so hard knowing that the only thing that makes your sadness better is time. since you have no control over that, continue to do whatever it takes to help you through this tough time. we miss you and are thinking of you!

mary said...

I'm sure you mistyped. You mean 1001 posts, right? :)

Glad to see you peeking out from under the covers.

Jozette said...

jessie -

1st, i love that cow picture, it's great.

2nd, i really do hope you feel better so soon. you are so fantastic. and you know, the hurt never totally goes away? but it no longer interferes with your life. when i think about my dog growing up (she died when i was in college and my dad didn't tell me)i still cry. but i think of her fondly and i cherish the little animals i have in my life now.

if there is anything i can do ...

SGM said...

Glad you're back, Jessie. What a heartbreaking loss--I'm so sorry.

Jennifer said...

My first dog that I had on my own died last year and I thought my heart would never mend. With time, and eventually a new furry friend, I learned that my heart is big enough to cherish the love I had for my first dog *and* make room for a new pupper as well. Your heart will mend as well. I promise. *hugs*

Through the Looking Glass said...

Come sit on my cybercouch and let me just hug you over space and time. Welcome back, you darling, happy girl. You were missed.

Amanda said...

So glad you're back. We'll have that happy hour drink soon!

thismslife said...

So glad you are back and feeling at least a little bit better!

Savvy Mode SG said...

oh i am sorry for your great loss. Be it natural or accidental, death of a pet (which becomes part of the family) is so hard.